Mike's Struggle

The Story From A Broken Mind

When you try to eat to feel something


I bought Swet~N~Sour Chicken with fried rice with Egg Roll, Plus an extra small shrip fried rice with Crab Lagoons. I then bought frod the dollar store a bag of UTZ chips, 5 pk Reese cups, 5p Take 5, 5 pk Kit Kat, a thing of Strawberry sugar Wafers, a 8oz pack of fudge dipped shortbread cookies, 2 pks of 6 Oreo cookies, 2pks of 4 Chip Ahoy Original cookies, 3 1/2 oz bag of Cheetos and 13oz of Duplex sandwich cream cookies. Oh and 1/2 gallon of milk and a 12fl oz of Canada Dry Ginger.

I paid around 40.00 for all this. To try to feel the pain inside because I feel numb. And after a week of smoking weed and feeling something I want to feel something again. I don’t care if it is pain or happy.

The lady at the Chinese restraint thought I order so much it must have been for two. img_20170209_124740

I hate this pain, I hate being alone, I have tried skinny, I have tried fat. I just want to be dead.  can’t cut anymore, I can’t find weed anymore the on;y pain I can have it when my stomach is so full I am about to vomit. So I put forty dollars on my credit card that I do not have to do this.

I wish someone would just kill me. I am a waste of space taking up someone else oxygen.


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Written By & Posted By Michael Granata
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“Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn’t go away.” – Philip K. Dick

“The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don’t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don’t always spoil the good things and make them unimportant.” — Doctor Who


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