Mike's Struggle

The Story From A Broken Mind

Went shopping :( – Journal 9/19/2016

i-has-a-sadMy word of the day is Sad…

My case manager went shopping with me today. She meet me at Wal-Mart and I got what I could.  But let me tell you I feel so weak because I can not go shopping by myself. I like a failure because I can not do such a simple life task, that my anxiety and hallucinations make me less then normal.

But Panada Bear-Cat was happy to have hard food again. Just saying.

Anyway I have when by myself freaked out and left the store before finishing my shopping. But when I have someone with me I can kind of read them and thus my hallucinations can not make a fool out of me. It is a simply fix expect I have like no friends. That is why me and Lilly use to go shopping every Friday that I got her. It was not only for the weekend food but my every day food also. God I miss Lilly 😦

14359101_1676975225884509_3521988071975167486_nSpeaking of Lilly I got her a new I miss you card today and will be getting it ready tomorrow and will post its info then.

But i would say that my over all mood is stable. Yes I have little up’s and down’s but who doesn’t. My issues is the feeling our not being Normal with every little bump. But you go to take a deep breath and move forward, and never ever show how you feel in public because that adds to the false feelings you have about be abnormal.

screenshot_20160917-180636Fake it till you make it right. But then you seek out places where you don’t have to fake it and stop getting into places where you got to fake it and it becomes about surviving.

But then you have to deal with normal people, and their normal ways. Makes me thing of an minion meme I seen and my comments to it in my group. Man I like that group and the members in it.

Also in Mike News lol I got into a fight with Jenn and am starting to feel used. I do not know at this time if them feeling are correct or just because of my illness. I am going to maybe talk to my therapist about this tomorrow. But we have so much to talk about I don’t know if this will come up.
















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“Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn’t go away.” – Philip K. Dick

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