The Story From A Broken Mind
My case manager went shopping with me today. She meet me at Wal-Mart and I got what I could. But let me tell you I feel so weak because I can not go shopping by myself. I like a failure because I can not do such a simple life task, that my anxiety and hallucinations make me less then normal.
But Panada Bear-Cat was happy to have hard food again. Just saying.
Anyway I have when by myself freaked out and left the store before finishing my shopping. But when I have someone with me I can kind of read them and thus my hallucinations can not make a fool out of me. It is a simply fix expect I have like no friends. That is why me and Lilly use to go shopping every Friday that I got her. It was not only for the weekend food but my every day food also. God I miss Lilly 😦
But i would say that my over all mood is stable. Yes I have little up’s and down’s but who doesn’t. My issues is the feeling our not being Normal with every little bump. But you go to take a deep breath and move forward, and never ever show how you feel in public because that adds to the false feelings you have about be abnormal.
But then you have to deal with normal people, and their normal ways. Makes me thing of an minion meme I seen and my comments to it in my group. Man I like that group and the members in it.
Also in Mike News lol I got into a fight with Jenn and am starting to feel used. I do not know at this time if them feeling are correct or just because of my illness. I am going to maybe talk to my therapist about this tomorrow. But we have so much to talk about I don’t know if this will come up.
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Written By & Posted by
Mr Michael J Granata
“Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn’t go away.” – Philip K. Dick
“Remember some people in the would don’t see tomorrow as a blessing but a nightmare.” Mike Granata