Mike's Struggle

The Story From A Broken Mind

First 7 days of My experience with Latuda

March 20th 2012 – Took the first 40mg pill at 5:30pm after I ate dinner. I ended up being so tired that I had to take a nap around 7:30pm waking about 9pm. I have not napped in years. No signs of decreased symptoms yet but it’s only been a few hrs.

So here is the totals.

41 green or okay & 12 green where >.5

20 Orange or Caution

10 Red or Waring danger zone

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March 21st 2012 – Took the 2nd pill about 6pm after dinner. Didn’t feel like I needed a nap & went to bed at usually time. I feel no different really

Symptoms: Voice, Normal | Bad thoughts, Normal | Feeling/Seeing bugs, Normal | Shadow People, Below Normal | Normal People that aren’t real, Normal | Other Visual Hallucinations, Normal | Cat Fred, None 😦

Feeling (1-5 One being none): Down, Depressed, Or hopeless (2) | Little Interest or pleasure in doing things (2)| Trouble failing asleep or sleeping to much (1) | Trouble concentrating on things (1)| Poor appetite or overeating (3) | Thoughts you would be better off dead (2.5)

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March 22nd 2012 – Took the pill about 5:30pm with a great dinner at a friends house, which being out may or may not effect my symptom levels IDK. But I feel asleep around 9:45-ish I just know that I did not see 10pm and was up at like 7am this morning. Woken to knocking on door, with no one at door, this happened about three times from about 5am to 7:30am. Also the falling asleep early may be due to the 84 minutes of exercise I got.

Symptoms (1 -5 one being lowest): Voice, (3) | Bad thoughts, (2.5)| Feeling/Seeing bugs, (2) | Shadow People, (1.5) | Normal People that aren’t real, (4) | Other Visual Hallucinations, (3.5) | Cat Fred, (0) None:(

Feeling (1-5 One being none): Down, Depressed, Or hopeless (2) | Little Interest or pleasure in doing things (1) | Trouble failing asleep or sleeping to much (.5) | Trouble concentrating on things (.5) | Poor appetite or overeating (2.5) | Thoughts you would be better off dead (3)

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March 23rd 2012 – Had therapy, did my usually shopping. Still felt paranoia out side. Took today’s pills at around 5:20pm. fell asleep around 7:30pm then woke up at 1:30am and can’t get back to sleep. I am going to have to take this medication around 8 – 9pm so that it dose not put me to sleep to early again. Which it for me has the effect of knocking me out. This also means I am going to have to add a fatty food to my 8pm snake which will mean moving around so foods.

Therapy was a bit intense dealing with one of my biggest past issues, my molestation from my childhood, which brings up memories and rought thoughs. So the three of 11 voices in my head where on attack afterwards. So my higher levels may be explained by that on Wednesdays or Fridays, but I will not if I feel that is the case.

Symptoms (1 -5 one being lowest): Voice, (4.5) | Bad thoughts, (3.5)| Feeling/Seeing bugs, (1.5) | Shadow People, (1.0) | Normal People that aren’t real, (4.5) | Other Visual Hallucinations, (3.5) | Cat Fred, (0) None:(

Feeling (1-5 One being none): Down, Depressed, Or hopeless (3.5) | Little Interest or pleasure in doing things (2)| Trouble failing asleep or sleeping to much (.5) | Trouble concentrating on things (2) | Poor appetite or overeating (2) | Thoughts you would be better off dead (5)

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March 24th 2012- Well I ended up falling asleep around 7pm on on the 23 and got up at 1:30am on the 24th and went to bed at 12:30am on the 25th so that made my day long. And it was quite the roller coaster. I got alot of cleaning done, a lot done with my blog. Did not over eat whcih would have been easy since I had so much time to cover. I did order out but my roommate paid and instead of a pizza I got a wrap and salad so A+ for that clear thinking. And I went out to Walmart, it was stressful but I did not load up on my anti-anxiety pills the day before maybe signs of improvement.

But in the evening I ended up going down hill. My wiring was not write on my office 12v system and had to be over heating for some time. Well last night as I was getting read to go to sleep about 9pm-sih it started smoking and sparking and well that was the end of my early night. So it took me about 3hrs to fix. And well the voices where on me and I was feeling like crap, stupid, loser and maybe some other things for doing it wrong / not seeing the problem / what ever else I could come up with last night.

And I took the pill about 8pm instead with dinner, I called a pharmacist at UPMC for U my insurance and all he would say is with a meal. When I asked what is a meal he said 250 calories. So I take my pill with 2 Tablespoons of peanut butter, one 100 calorie yogurt and 3 fish oil pills. That totals 338 calories and 20g of fat. But **seek your own doctors advice before doing this**

I am adding a new feelings area: Thought of your a screw up or failure

Symptoms (1 -5 one being lowest): Voice, (4.5) | Bad thoughts, (4.5)| Feeling/Seeing bugs, (1.5) | Shadow People, (1.0) | Normal People that aren’t real, (4.0) | Other Visual Hallucinations, (4.5) | Cat Fred, (0) None:(

Feeling (1-5 One being none): Down, Depressed, Or hopeless (3.5) | Little Interest or pleasure in doing things (2)| Trouble failing asleep or sleeping to much (.5) | Trouble concentrating on things (3) | Poor appetite or overeating (1.5) | Thoughts you would be better off dead (5) | Thought of your a screw up or failure (5)

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March 25th 2012 – Took pill at 6:30pm because I ate a late dinner and didnt want to eat my snack thing at 10pm, we will see when I fall asleep hopefully not till after 9pm. Oh that makes me sound old. lol. Well I think I am changeing my meals around again to get dinner every night at around 6:30 – 7pm because I feel asleep around 9:30pm-ish so that kinda worked out. All and all not a bad day, didn’t got out but nothing bad happened.

Added Knocking on walls or doors & Mightmares.

Symptoms (1 -5 one being lowest): Voice, (4.0) | Bad thoughts, (4.5)| Feeling/Seeing bugs, (1.0) | Shadow People, (0) | Normal People that aren’t real, (0) | Other Visual Hallucinations, (3.5) | Knocking on walls or doors (3.0) | Cat Fred, (0) None:(

Feeling (1-5 One being none): Down, Depressed, Or hopeless (2.5) | Little Interest or pleasure in doing things (1.5)| Trouble failing asleep or sleeping to much (.5) | Trouble concentrating on things (3) | Poor appetite or overeating (1.0) | Thoughts you would be better off dead (2.5) | Thought of your a screw up or failure (2)

Nightmares (1-5 One being not bad): (1.5)

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March 26st 2012 – Woke up at around 6:30am after going to bed around 9:30pm so about 9hrs sleep. Mild nightmares. I got a lot done around the house and online with my blog and Facebook & twitter accounts. I did not go out side and didn’t work out either but I needed a break form working out. Took my pill around 7:30pm went to bed around 11pm.

Symptoms (1 -5 one being lowest): Voice, (3.5) | Bad thoughts, (4.0)| Feeling/Seeing bugs, (2.0) | Shadow People, (0.5) | Normal People that aren’t real, (.5) | Other Visual Hallucinations, (2.5) | Knocking on walls or doors (3.0) | Cat Fred, (0) None:(

Feeling (1-5 One being none): Down, Depressed, Or hopeless (2.0) | Little Interest or pleasure in doing things (1.0)| Trouble failing asleep or sleeping to much (1.0) | Trouble concentrating on things (2.5) | Poor appetite or overeating (1.5) | Thoughts you would be better off dead (3) | Thought of your a screw up or failure (1.5)

Nightmares (1-5 One being not bad): (2.5)

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